Wow it’s been awhile.

I guess I’ve been spreading myself a little too thin. I’ve been trying to have it all, while also still enjoying the simple life with Stefan.

I love being with him. I love spending time with him. But sometimes it feels like my precious time is being wasted. Not with him, just in general.

I know why we do it. It feels good. It’s distracting to binge watch TV. To scroll on our phones.

It’s easy. It’s carefree.

Unfortunately for me and everyone else… nothing good ever came easy.

Nothing worth having was as simple as going after it.

There are always going to be trials. Stumbles. Hurdles.

That’s where I’m at. Stumbling. But I will get back up. I have to. I have to make a difference.