my last first

Hello everyone. To you reading this, thank you. Thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my words. It means so much to me that there are people who want to hear what I have to say. Some of you may be reading this purely to judge me. To you, I say… its okay. I totally understand. I do it as well. Growing up in a small town means that we get to know others so well, even the people we are not friends with. We hear stories about people and we make assumptions about them. The more we see them, the more we want to know. We are interested in others. I guess a part of us just wants to compare our journeys with each other. Sometimes in a negative way but sometimes just in a curious way.

We are all so different. We are all on a different journey. It is okay to be curious about others, especially the people we grew up with. I challenge you to be aware of your curiosity next time it arises. When it does, please try to be positive about it. Be happy for others. Celebrate their achievements. Cheer them on. Speak highly of them. Reach out to them. Nothing good ever came to either of you by being negative about someone and their life.

Only a few of you will know that this is not my first blog. If you search the internet you would find at least two other blogs that I have made as a teenager. A literal online diary. I would probably be pretty embarrassed if I re-read anything that I wrote many years ago. But it’s a part of me and a part of my journey so I will let it exist on the internet for now. It is literally a timeline of my ever changing personality and the struggles I have been through. It shows what I valued at the time.

So I am writing this blog with this title in the hopes that this will be the last blog I ever create. I hope that the person I am today is the one that will continue this blog until I have nothing left to say.

Some of you will know that I also have a YouTube account. I am using these different forms of social media to share my story and my life. I feel like I have a lot to say about a lot of different things. I am hoping that by writing about the things I think about I will find peace in my mind.

Ultimately this blog is for you. I am so thankful for all the learning that I have done in my life. I am thankful for every piece of information that I have ever read or listened to. I hope by sharing my thoughts on certain topics it will help you to learn from my experience. I have a constant need to help others in any way that I can. At this stage of my life it doesn’t feel like I have an outlet to help others in the way that I want to. So for now, this is what I will be doing.

I truly believe that speaking to others is the best way to help ourselves. Emotional support is something that is hugely important as a human being. We need others. We need reassurance. I hope I can be that for you. I hope that you can read something on this blog and it will make your life better. Even if its only by 1%. Maybe a certain sentence sparks something in you to make a change. Maybe you learn one single piece of information and it makes you look at something completely differently. Maybe my words give you the encouragement you need to do the thing you’ve been meaning to do. Maybe hearing my views helps our personal relationship connect on a new level, bringing more joy to your life.

Everyone deserves to have a voice. No matter your opinion, you are entitled to it. I think in our generation we spend so much time watching everyone else that we forget to ask ourselves what we think. How do we feel about this? I think it is important to be open to new ideas, new stories, new experiences. I think it is also important to discuss ideas with others and to respect that every person has a different view depending on their own experiences. I think we should take more time to seriously consider how we feel about certain topics and I think the only way to do that is by learning and talking about it. I think it is important to reflect on your own actions and opinions to really get a grasp on why you are the way you are. I think the values, views and opinions that we are forming now will stay with us for the rest of our life, ultimately changing the lives of the people around us, even the ones we end up raising. I think Now is the time to become the best version of yourself.

That is what this blog is for.

Love, Caitlin xxx

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