What a time to be alive.

The feeling of being a 20-something, unsure about her wants, needs, fantasies, aspirations, wildest dreams & secret desires is hard to put into exact words. How does a person keep moving forward when she’s so uncertain of the trajectory she is after.

There are so many things i want to experience. I am such a passionate person. Everything is my favourite. I want it all. But I guess I am limited in this tiny life of mine. Even more so now that a quarter of it has already passed. Maybe because there are so many things I am after I have somehow left myself with nothing. I’m so overwhelmed by the possibilities that they all seem out of reach.

I am envious of the people who knew their destiny before it was reality. I haven’t found my path yet. I am on a never ending journey and I try to remind myself every day that the direction of that journey will become clear to me soon.

The only thing I can control is my own actions. My thoughts, my behaviour, my values. They are the things I need to hold close to me. To be aware of. To put effort into. If you do not have meaning in life then you have nothing. Our happiness is linked to our life’s meaning and I think that is something I really need to think about right now.

All we are ever promised is this life. This fragile, meaningless life. This life of suffering, of emotion, of joy. Bask in it. Be here for it. What do you want out of this life? Who do you want to be?